Saturday, 15 March 2025

Disappointment

Today, i do not know how to teach my children. Very disappointed and felt that I failed my duty as a mother. 

At Harbourfront, I saw his sister sneakily in a shop. Then I happen to see a pen with missing figurines inside. I do not wish that what I suspect is true. I had a feeling she took something from the shop because she saw me behind and her reaction changed and told her papa that she wanted to leave already. Usually, we are the ones who told them time to go. 

I tell myself maybe the figurines are already missing and I shouldn't doubt her. I struggled my emotions and thinking's while still spending time in the mall. 

After I came back home, I told papa to check her pockets if there is any small figurines cuz I suspect she took it from the shop. We couldn't find anything. I was relieved that what I suspect is wrong and I should not have think that she took the things. 

Then I asked kor to go wash the diamonds we brought home from the claw machine shop. He did not pour everything out from the bag but taking 1 by 1 out. I felt something is wrong. I took over the bag and poured out everything. Saw the small figurines. Asked him what are these? From where. He said is mei stuffs. I asked me, she say she took it from the shop. I broke down. 

After much explanation, it was her 2nd time. Both being kor telling her to take it if she likes it. Very disappointed. We explained the consequences. I made sure they understand the severity of theft. 

I am still feeling disappointed. Why did they do that knowing it is a wrong thing to do. 

We have always been buying these for them if they like it and if it is within our means. Why are they still having these thoughts? 

Papa told them to throw the stolen stuffs away. It was their 2nd time, by the way. 

While I tell them I trust them, but in my heart, I am still doubting if they will do the same mistake again. 

They went to bed crying silently. I do not know if they are genuinely realising their mistake or because we were tearing while trying to explain how disappointed we were. 

I hope this will not break the trust I have for them. 

I hope they will not do that ever again. 

We are not rich, but whatever we can afford, we will buy it for them. In fact, I felt that they were very blessed in this family already. 


Primary 1 school life

It is end of year exams and I am so tied up with all the revision with kor.  Sorry mei, I really have no time for you which I felt quite bad...